ooooooo. bad habits.

So I have this bad habit of biting my nails... It wasn't that big of a problem until my dentist started asking me if I bite my nails. But he would have answered his own question if he had just looked down from my mouth to my hands and saw the nub ends of my fingers... Anyway, any extreme nail biter knows that it's not a habit to be easily broken. I know that not a lot of people understand this especially members of my family who I know are sick of watching me nibble away all the time. But about 8 years ago I found that my nail biting crossed over the fine line between conscience and subconscious. Sometimes I don't even know that I'm biting my nails until my fingers start bleeding. It's a bit of a nervous thing, but it's also just turned into a "I don't know what else to do with my hands" kind of thing. And... ... ...Oh sorry I was just picking at my nails. And it's not just the nails I bite, it's the skin and cuticles around the nails... man. It really is a bad habit. But I can't even help it!! I really can't.
I remember reading that one Bearingston Bears books about bad habits, and sister bear had a nail biting problem and her mom just bribed her with money, but that really wouldn't work... I'd probably end up owing my mom money. Anyway, the point is it's not something I can just quit. In some way it's like a bad smokers habit; it's not that I like doing it, I know it's gross, it's bad for me and I pretty much have the ugliest fingers in the world, but I wouldn't be able to quit... I've tried a lot of things... I have actually done the money thing, and the taping of the fingers things, and the putting of disgusting tasting nail stuff on... But I've always found a way around it. It is really sad, I wish I had never started in the first place. And then I think, how the crap did I start in the first place? I mean what would drive me to bite that first nail? Was I that nervous of a kid? I don't remember... I think was pretty laid back. Oh well... It's not the end of the world, it's just the end of my fingers that are suffering... Oh and my teeth. Oops.

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